One way to express your feeling

The worst part is that you were not able to be angry at a person because you have no right. Who are you? The pain is real. You can't be mad but it has to be released so that you feel better.  You know that is not anyone fault but your expectation so you were mad at yourself. However, you know that is unfair to blame just yourself, but again you couldn't angry to anyone. Besides you have learnt  that stoic attitude, nothing matters till you react to it. 

Thinking about it, you start questioning and feeling bad and you have to release that kind of feeling. If no, it would be bad for your health and vibration. You would like to sleep with calmness and high vibration because you deserve it the most. You deserve it. You have to find way to release it. Writing is one but you feel like to punch someone but its impossible. 

Finally, listening to rock music is one of good way. I just start listening to it, hoping my anger will be expressed well. I love myself and hoping that I can stay as stoic as possible for every problem appearing in my life. Knowing that music can help one express feeling but to feel it to release an emotion is different thing. After listening for a while, I think I feel better and even want to cry myself. At least, I am feeling good. 

Sleepless Nights

 Sleepless nights recently but all good. However, would like to take this very minutes writing what I have been thinking so far.

I got an email today. It was a very good news. Then you have this kind of excitements that bring all the feelings.

Is this even real? Again

Do I deserve this? I am a little human being and I think this is so good opportunity, so great and amazing.

I want it. I have been dreaming one day to be there, not that in the exact place but yeah around there. It's a really big dream. I still can't believe it. 

I humbly thanks everyone who supports me.

I want to work and focus on myself. Not that overthinking feeling and wandering thoughts. Lol but the wandering thoughts and confidence bring me to achieve things.  I can do it and always will. Somehow I know deep down I always have the courage in between of my self doubt. I always know that I will cope and give best of things, have a good and positive thoughts in between of insecurity. Always remember that is nothing perfect. Imperfection is everywhere in everything and that we shall believe it's going to be ok.