Good Memories

 You miss that "how are you?"/"how was  your day"

Now you know that not everyone will ask those questions. When there is no more then you think, it was special, knowing there was someone really want to know every detail of yours. 

It is gone know for months. The nice part will show up like it was yesterday. One thing to be sure,  nothing is permanent. People change. There is no new notification anymore. 

He made jokes so you can giggle and he said he was happy just to hear your laugh. That was sweet and nice. Yes, I should laugh more for myself. Thank you for being part of my life, for the calls and messages, for the encouragement and tolerance of me being silly and absurd. 

Go love yourself. Be brave, be proud that you are this far. It was good memories. 

Life will move on but at least these memories are forever.  I wish you well. 

Damn

 

I thought he will always lift me up

Or available 

For my grudge or useless comments of life 

For my needy of attention 

For my smart & sweet talk

and I thought I deserve his deep affection

I am left questioned of his motive

Sometimes I felt (loved?)

Sometimes I felt questioning

I know logically non sense 

To feel all the feeling 

But it was real, cute, lifting, comforting, warm

For me being self centred  (I guess) and having little understanding and 

That overthinking 

That ruins things

...

I don't like that take care at all

Show me some effort or (am I even deserve that?)