Damn

 

I thought he will always lift me up

Or available 

For my grudge or useless comments of life 

For my needy of attention 

For my smart & sweet talk

and I thought I deserve his deep affection

I am left questioned of his motive

Sometimes I felt (loved?)

Sometimes I felt questioning

I know logically non sense 

To feel all the feeling 

But it was real, cute, lifting, comforting, warm

For me being self centred  (I guess) and having little understanding and 

That overthinking 

That ruins things

...

I don't like that take care at all

Show me some effort or (am I even deserve that?)